Monday, November 24, 2008

Lacking of Inspiration....

I’m surviving on borrowed words,
Leeching off the inspiration of others,
Living gregariously through someone else’s experience,
Is it bad to use the energy?

Or is it fine to let it filter through and fill me up…For the moment.

ALONE

‘what are u thinking?’
‘I’m not thinking’
‘Who are u thinking of?’
‘Its not you’
‘Then?’‘Me!’
‘You and who?’
‘What do u mean?’
‘Its always you and someone , its never you alone’

OMG!!!!!! I’m afraid of being alone!!!!

Life is not all about sex...Life is SEX???!!!

What’s the big deal about sex anyway? It’s a normal human process. Media glorifies that sex sells from advertising, scandals, to internet porn. The boundary norms and taboo’s are nudged, our conditioned thinking shifts, and it becomes more acceptable. Not too long ago I was quite taken aback by one of this blog that I've read. I am totally bowled over by the boldness to write a post on that topic.


In some societies while girls are attempting to preserve their ‘theoretical’ virginity by indulging in alternate satisfaction, others are having sex out of wedlock, some are falling pregnant or frolicking with multiple partners bareback which heightens the risk of Aids. (HIV post coming soon)
Abortion is not a concern for most societies. It’s a solution to a problem that is swept under the rug leaving some or no emotional scarring on those having undergone it.


People’s perceptions have become so desensitized since the legalization of abortion.


It is straight forward; if you don’t want to fall pregnant, don’t have sex!
There really is no other fool proof way.
A conversation with someone left me in sudden stupor:
He said: If she’s pregnant, she’ll have to have an abortion, its not like it’s a baby, its just a bunch of cells.
This irked me!!

Just a bunch of cells????

Of course its a baby!!

It’s a baby in formation state!!!

If god wanted to give people a bunch of cells they didn’t need, he’d give them tumours.


Afew years ago, a very close friend contacted German measles during the first few weeks of pregnancy and was strongly advised to terminate it, due to the development implications of having a child that was abnormal. Heeding this advice was exceptionally physically and emotionally traumatic. Just one pill, the doctor said… but only if you want to. She did. It was a very sensitive time and living through the after effects and the process with her, has left a dent on my soul. Even rape victims are left with decisions like these. Those instances are not uncommon, yet it is a decision a person will carry with them to the end of their life.


It bothers me that people do not give value to life, and possible life… yet there are hundreds of women who cannot conceive, hundreds of couples who are waiting on paper queues at adoption agencies, in hope of getting a child.


Once, I've read this artice about how irresponsibility of teenage mom’s. At 17 years old, you’re hardly a child anymore. Post natal depression may lead women to react in such manners. But how… really… HOW does one get up every morning knowing that one has consciously taken the life of one’s child.


Am I being hypersensitive?Or are the youth not being adequately informed of pregnancy rates?Are teenagers not given explicit indications of what happens during pregnancy?Do they have no idea of the details of abortion other than just taking the magic pill.


Another article that really broke my heart...


As heartbreaking this is from an ethical and moral perspective,The aftermath for other ‘mother’s’ having endured the same procedure, is relative.One can be selfish and say, one is making a choice not to tamper with the course of one’s (stable) life. I doubt any woman can endure something like this and not be left with emotional and psychological scars, regrets or trauma.


This is one of the few documented occurrences, but there are hundreds of these happening all over the world, its not as publicized. The extensiveness of the experience is directly proportional to how far the mother is into the pregnancy. The more developed the foetus the more traumatic and emphatic the loss.


For all of you with a gloomy image of an abandoned, confused and hopelessly scared pregnant teen girl, scratch that and replace it with a 25-year-old mother of one who has suddenly become pregnant, but isn’t really feeling up to the challenge again. It seems that the numbers show how women feel about abortions, but how do you feel about it all?



We try to ignore these things because we expect it to cease to exist if we give it no attention. What would you do if your kid sister, best friend, or daughter came bearing news to you of their decision to have an abortion. What would you do if you accidentally found a Mary Stopes (abortion clinic) receipt in her room.


Society is ailing. Morality is falling.The new breed of people live a life of zero consequences and quick fixes.There’s always a solution. Life is after all just an implication of sex…whether its wanted or not isn’t a question.No one asks to be born… But does anyone really ask to die?

Friday, November 21, 2008

i can be happy...why i choose..

i always wanna be happy..i was happy once...when i was a kid...when i was a teenage...when i got married...it was all "once upon a time"... Things have change now... Here I am...married...but without a husband who live under one roof... Things become more complicated day by day and i did not know when is gonna ended...